I don’t think I have mentioned this before, but long story short, I went through a very hard break-up at the end of last year. Dating for over three years, lived together, the works. But the relationship did not work out, and I was in a not-so-great place for quite a few months. I set big goals for myself, immediately after the break-up, including the goal of running a half and making over my life to be healthier and happier. But I was just not mentally in a state to tackle these goals yet. I needed time to heal, and I needed to do it in my own time.
I started this blog as part of my journey to find a healthier, happier balance when it came to eating, fitness and my overall lifestyle. Me starting this blog was a breaking point for me. I was finally feeling ready to actually accomplish the goals I had wanted to begin to tackle, but had not yet had the energy (mentally) to do so, which brings me to now.
While I am not significantly overweight, I definitely need to find my happy weight, (which to me means loosing some weight,) which I want to do in a healthy way. How much weight? That I don’t know, exactly, because it will be my feel good weight, and I do believe my body and myself will just know when that happens. I want to adopt a lifestyle that allows me to make good eating choices, or habits if you will, at ease, and to develop a love for running, as well as other fitness activities.
I really believe that I have begun to makeover my eating habits. I consciously think of the choices I am making and, while I do splurge at times, (I don’t like to think of it as cheating…,) I really have changed the way I eat.
I have incorporated fitness into my schedule, and usually end up getting in activity of some sort, whether it be cardio or strength, at least four to five times, if not more, a week. And let me tell you, before I started this blog, I was lucky to get one day of some sort of fitness in each week.
I have had setbacks, I know that. With my toe surgery, I had to stop running for over two weeks, and limit my movement overall. This pretty much made it impossible for me to even attempt to run the half marathon I had registered for back in January (which is scheduled one month from today,) because I did not begin training soon enough, and I made a goal for myself that really should have been done in steps (5k, 10k, etc,) and most importantly decided in a better frame of mind.
Even with my toe setback though, I really have began to develop a love for running, for making fitness a part of my weekly routine. I still would love to run a half, I just know that I have to run my race, and that half is not the half for me. I know that I will not be prepared, that I will not be able to finish and that I very well could hurt myself. Something that I do not want to happen. I will run a half. It just won’t be in one month. I mean hell, a 5k in one month’s time, now that would be a better goal.
Where does all of this lead to? While I have had setbacks, I have made changes. Significant changes even, but with these changes, I really don’t feel like my body has changed much. My stomach does feel somewhat smaller, and I do feel healthier, but the scale hasn’t moved, and, if I am being honest here, I really want it to.
While I am eating healthy, perhaps, I need eat differently during this stage where I want to lose weight rather than maintain weight. And while I am running, I need to have better, stronger plans that I can work towards.
I guess what I am saying is, I need to create new goals for myself. Goals that are realistic and that have a timeline that is achievable. Training for a half in 10 weeks, when you haven’t even run a mile in
months years – not realistic. Am I right?
I need some advice, and I’ve decided the best way to ask for it, is to write it down, and see what advice I get back.
What advice do you all have for me? For me to find my happy weight, and to continue my running with realistic goals.
For running, I am thinking a 5k in about 6 weeks. Does that sound like a good goal? For eating, what do I need to do? What advice have you used in the past to be healthy while finding that happy weight?
This was clearly long and long-winded, but I needed to put it out there. Hopefully you guys will have some words of wisdom for me! Thanks for reading if you got this far. I have loved joining this blogging community, and I really do love this journey I am on.