Over the weekend, I spent the majority of my time preparing for my move to San Francisco. As I was going through my things deciding what goes and what stays, I had a lot of time to think about the past 9 months of my life. The time I spent in this apartment. The amount of time since my breakup with my old boyfriend (whom I was living with before.) The amount of time I’ve question whether staying in DC was right for me. And what I’ve realized is, is that the last 9 months to me have really felt like a state of limbo.
I’ve always been a planner. I’ve always had a boyfriend (you know what I mean.) And I’ve always known my next step. But first the first time in my whole life, I didn’t know what to plan, I didn’t have a boyfriend and I had no idea what my next step was going to be. I tried planning. I tried dating. I tried figuring out my next step. But none of it felt right. DC didn’t feel right. Life didn’t feel right.
I went to San Francisco in May for my sister Katie’s engagement party, and all of a sudden, something clicked. I still didn’t have a plan. I still didn’t have a boyfriend. But I knew my next step was figuring out a way to get back to California.
To move to San Francisco.
To start over.
Suddenly things really began falling into place. I felt like I had direction. I feel like I had a new plan, a kind of plan I’ve never had before. A plan that involved trusting my instincts and not necessarily having everything 100% in place. Before I knew it, within two weeks I had an amazing phone interview, with a great company, headquartered in San Francisco, and a person that was willing to sub-lease my apartment. Life was falling into place, and I could tell my next step was happening and I didn’t even have time to plan it.
In 5 short days I am getting in my (tightly packed) car and heading West. I still only have half a plan. (I am hoping something comes out of that amazing phone interview, I’ll have an in person interview once I get into town.) And no boyfriend. (But I think I am actually okay with this. San Francisco, start lining them up. 😉 ) But I think my next step, is going to be the best step for me yet.
I have a great feeling that this next chapter in my life, is going to be the best chapter in my life. I’m going to get healthy + find that balance I have been struggling for here in DC. I am going to be happy, I mean how can I not being in a city with friends and family. And most importantly, I am going to continue to let life show my course, and trust that each decision that I make brings me to where I am supposed to be in life.
(Back to regularly scheduled blogging soon. Just needed to get that out. I am exciting for the things to come, and I am excited to share them with you all.)